gosh i hate being stupid.

I guess what floats my boat is the constant need to be hurt.

and shit i do it so well

but i guess that is why my interaction with a member of the opposite sex has been limited to mark

also why it is so easy for me to be a virgin also, because mark sucked he was just easy for a lack of a better word, easy because he liked me, we were always together, and none of my friends liked him. it grew from there

gah my baby sister, she is not really related to me, but she is basically my baby sister is 14, she has already made out with 6 people, this year!!!

I was happy to talk to a person that i couldn't look into the face because i was scared of developing a crush on him.

oh that person.  I wanted to hold him so bad.

all i got was a crappy one armed hug.  i wanted him to hold me and to look up into his eyes and kiss him and all of that was running through my head.

so my response, i looked down and made a fool of myself.

i feel so immature and stupid.